Just switched to new blogger software, another new password :-(
Spent four hours tidying up the house today. Didn't actually clean anything, but moved a lot of stuff around. Tis the season to be tidy.
Last day of term tomorrow. We're celebrating by going out for lunch and letting the kids go to kids club for the last time this term. I'm sure that the school carol service will be lovely but the church is just too small and unless you are prepared to get there half an hour early there is no chance of getting a seat. If you do sit down it is highly unlikely that your child will then be visible, such is the extent of overcrowding that occurs.
Sunday will be the church nativity and Christingle, now those I am looking forward to. I've even stuck cloves into some satsumas today just to give the living room that festive smell.
George has just appeared as he thinks he has a rat in his bedroom. So I now have to go and investigate. Having tried to tidy said bedroom today I can confirm that anything is possible.
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Time for decisions
Christmas is nearly upon us again. I tend to get a bit fed up at Christmas. The TV vision of either joy and festivities, or misery and depression seems to go to extremes, with no middle ground.
I tend to feel it is the season to be depressed, if you are ever going to be depressed now is the time to do it.
For the past 4 years I've been working within my own company. All holidays and breaks from work have caused me to reflect on what I do and why I choose to do it. If you run your own company and don't 'go to work' there is no money. The thoughts 'surely it would be better/easier/less stressful to get a (proper) job' float through my head at these times when really I should be making the most of the quiet time. This year I feel more relaxed (at the moment) and I guess that each year the feeling will get better. Year 1 was terrifying, and now I know it is just how things are and something else will come along. Every week I am thankful that I don't have a proper job. I like the feeling of control it gives me, even if the cashflow can cause moments of stress...
I've got mental plans in place for the things I am going to start doing to promote the business and grow it beyond being mostly just me. They feel real and do'able now, probably for the first time I'm confident enough to admit publicly that I'm good at what I do and worth a premium sum of money. That looks a bit silly in print, but it took me a long time to remove myself from traditional employment and it has taken me a bit longer to start properly getting my head round the issues of what is good value and how I can provide it in a consultancy framework.
Similarly the pressure to buy everything to make things better is still there but I am getting a bit better. I still think I probably shop beyond my means but at least this year I have gone a whole year without a credit card - in itself that deserves a celebration.
I tend to feel it is the season to be depressed, if you are ever going to be depressed now is the time to do it.
For the past 4 years I've been working within my own company. All holidays and breaks from work have caused me to reflect on what I do and why I choose to do it. If you run your own company and don't 'go to work' there is no money. The thoughts 'surely it would be better/easier/less stressful to get a (proper) job' float through my head at these times when really I should be making the most of the quiet time. This year I feel more relaxed (at the moment) and I guess that each year the feeling will get better. Year 1 was terrifying, and now I know it is just how things are and something else will come along. Every week I am thankful that I don't have a proper job. I like the feeling of control it gives me, even if the cashflow can cause moments of stress...
I've got mental plans in place for the things I am going to start doing to promote the business and grow it beyond being mostly just me. They feel real and do'able now, probably for the first time I'm confident enough to admit publicly that I'm good at what I do and worth a premium sum of money. That looks a bit silly in print, but it took me a long time to remove myself from traditional employment and it has taken me a bit longer to start properly getting my head round the issues of what is good value and how I can provide it in a consultancy framework.
Similarly the pressure to buy everything to make things better is still there but I am getting a bit better. I still think I probably shop beyond my means but at least this year I have gone a whole year without a credit card - in itself that deserves a celebration.
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